The life of an NCC cadet

I'm back :D

2010-07-16T08:29:00.000-07:00

Hello :) Sorry for not blogging for quite some time. Been very busy these few weeks. NDP,'O' levels prelims preparation. and the fucked up-ness of the school unit. Oh well,life isn't fair. Teachers are always right eventhough they're in the wrong. I'm seriously hoping for my DSA to Catholic Junior College will be accepted. I kinda like the environment there :)

I'll like to thanks all those who have groomed me till what I am today.If it's not for you guys, don't think that I'd be able to win this award.

1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10.It loooks like the time for the 10 of us has run out. Thanks for being my rivals and giving me the motivation to push my unit to further heights :)

2010-05-25T04:58:00.000-07:00

Somethin bout the way
Somethin bout the way you look
In my eyes
You make everything so damn easy
So easy that I don't got to worry bout a thing

And baby when we touch
All I can see is the image of us
Sitting by the ocean
Just before the dusk
Sippin on a juice box and
Sand between our toes

This is the part when we say were in love
And the part where we have our first kiss
But this ain't a movie
I know you can't come with me
You got your life
He better be treatin you right

Just tell me you don't love me
Tell me you don't feel the same way that I do
Tell me I don't make you smile
Like I do when you walk in the room
You're so hard to let go

This is the part when we say were in love
And the part where we say it's forever
But this ain't a fantasy
I know you can't come with me
You got your life
He better be treatin you right

This hurts so much to know that you're
With someone else when you should be w me
It's just hard to accept that I can't be around
He better be treatin you good
I'm no einstein but I know a sign
When I see one
And I know you love me too

Closure.

2010-05-24T04:08:00.001-07:00

It's been 12 days since we seperated.
Really starting to feel the impact now.
My life's empty without you.
I miss the times we chatted till late night.
I miss the times you made me laugh.
I miss the times you bring me back up when I fall.
I hope life's been great to you.
Mine's been a heck of a ride without you.
I haven't gotten over you a single bit.
I still love you.
I've never regretted waiting for 7 months.
I've never regretted losing the people close to me.
I don't mind being called an idiot coz I'm waiting for you.
Well,it's all over now.
There are times where I really just wanna press that send button to sms you.
But I hesitate everytime.
I wonder why.
I'm scared of hurting you again.

Time and time again, I fought with myself,
Thinking that she could be with somebody else
The truth is, that shes gone

I wish we could talk now, now that its over
I see that youve moved on, but I need some closure
Its weighing heavy on my chest, its all that I have left
I know that its over, but I need some closure.

2010-04-18T08:18:00.000-07:00

Speech day's finally over.
It also means that I'm gonna be stepping down from NCC soon. :(

Parade Sergeant Major, MSG Muhd Nur Hasfis

USM/RSM

Me and Syaf.

Me and WY/Sheepy.

Me and Qing Wen

Zhi Gang/Me and WY

WY/Wei En/Sam/Me/Waleed

The USMs.

Me and Sariza

Me/Seng Wei/Jieting

The "mini" version of the UG family :)

Senior Specs + CLT.

ASM/USM/CM

Tiff/Me/Mariam

Karen and me ! :D *you are not alone ~*

Me and my medic, Sion. :X

The UG heads, except for one missing rascal.

My fellow camel rider, haha.

Me and my scandal :X HAHA.

Well, 3 weeks to POP.

2010-04-05T07:29:00.000-07:00

"To give up on love is to give up on life"

Should I give up?
Or should I pursue on?
I'm still confused.

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Pissed off coz of 1 more thing.

WE painted the room.
WE renovated it.
WE did inventory checks.
We cleared the unused furniture.
WE moved the metal cabinets around.
WE used OUR budget to put notice boards and a whiteboard.
WE washed the dirty floors.
WE sorted out the 200+ mess tins and solid fuels,etc.
WE swept the dusty floor.
WE put up all the posters and banners.
WE put up the mutual board display.

WHAT GIVES YOU THE RIGHT TO SAY THAT WE NEVER DO ANYTHING TO THE ROOM AND THAT IT'S YOUR WORK?

OUR mutual board displays got destroyed.
Did WE complain? NO.
OUR rifles got damaged.
Did WE complain? NO.
WE shared our things with you.
You LOCKED your stuff.
Did WE complain? NO.

YOUR STUFF THAT'S LOCKED GETS DAMAGED AND YOU BLAME US? WTF.

Find out the truth before pinpointing. Thanks.

2010-04-04T05:00:00.000-07:00

Finally, the day I get over you is here.
Went to the beach to clear my head.
It was a tough choice
But I chose to stop lying to myself.
I know that you'll never like me
Looks like I've been deceiving myself all this while.
Guess it's time I stop talking to you

从前从前有个人爱你很久
但偏偏风渐渐
把距离吹得好远
好不容易又能再多爱一天

2010-04-02T09:03:00.000-07:00

You told me not to wait for you.
But I'm still waiting.
How stubborn of me.
Eventhough there are others waiting for me,
I still chose to wait for you.
Sometimes, I wonder.
Why do I love you so much?
Is it your smile?
Is it the way you treat me?
Is it the way you help me when I fall?
Or is it everything about you?
Can't believe that I'm actually tearing while I'm typing this.
This is how much I love you.
To be able to make me cry,
I guess my heart is really full of emotions now.

i'm back :D

2010-03-27T08:15:00.000-07:00

Hello guys and girls,
It's been super long since I last blogged.
First of all, I would like to say that I'm fine and still alive :)
Spent my March holidays with annual Bedok View Secondary Uniformed Group Camp andddd
5th NCC Advanced Drill Course ! So yeah,it's striked out from my wishlist :)
I met alot of interesting people there and learnt many new things.
My new favourite drills are colours drills :D (specifically rusuk and turn only)
Felt abit bored during sword drills lesson as I already knew them.
Oh well, whole course agreed that the theory test was a breeze.
Other schools the senior batch of ADC gave them notes.Wa lao.
Well,overall the course was GREAT :D (due to the friends and my platoonmates)
SHOUTOUT TO PLATOON 6 SECTION 1 !
Well, kinda dissapointed that I didn't win any award
Kinda deserved not getting any because I really slacked during the course.
But it turned out to be a happy ending for me.
Didn't win any award during ADC but I managed to win the NCC Outstanding Cadet Award,
given to a selected few who are able to show and uphold the 7 core values of NCC.
So far, I'm the 3rd person from my school to receive it.
Went to Headquarters today for the NCC Running Club briefing for the Army Half Marathon.
21 kilometres, NCC will be in the same catergory as OCS,Special Forces,SCDF and Gurkhas, so it's going to be a VERY TOUGH fight for us, since we really lose out on age and fitness level.But, NOTHING is impossible.
I feel like getting the Nike Lunarlite shoes :D FLYWIRE FTW !

2010-02-14T22:59:00.000-08:00

Went to the 43rd War Memorial Service just now at cenotaph.
Reached 1h+ earlier?
Got chosen to represent NCC(Land) in laying a rief

I'm starting to fall.
I'm falling real deep.
There's just that special something about you
That I can't let go.`
I Love You.♥

Valentines.

2010-02-14T07:12:00.000-08:00

Hey people :) it's CNY and Vday today :D

To all my friends celebrating CNY : Happy CNY people ! collect alot of ang paos okay ;D

Anyway,this post is dedicated to a very special friend.

I hope you get over him soon.
Stop thinking that it's your fault okay?
Because it's not.
Since the wound has now turned into a scar,
it would heal faster.
Scars like these are superficial,
you choose whether you want them to heal or not.
I can't do much about that,I'm sorry.
In these circumstances,what you should be doing is
to get back on your two feet and move on.
You don't need someone like him.
You deserve so much more,someone better.
Don't say that you're not good enough for him.
Everybody is good is some other way,be it the ability to love,
or being able to understand one's feelings.
So just stop thinking about him and move on okay?
I know it's hard, but you'll never do it if you don't even bother to try.
Aren't you supposed to be a leader?
A leader is supposed to be someone who's strong,strong enough to lead others.
So be strong,okay?
I'm always here for you.`

Time really flies.

2010-02-08T05:16:00.001-08:00

I started secondary school in 2007...and it's already 2010 now.
3 years flew by so fast,so fast,that i can't accept a few facts :
- Stepping down from NCC (at least until i come back as a CLT) , which has been my passion in secondary school.

- GCE 'O' Levels. I remember when i was in sec 1 I used to laugh at those sec 4s mugging everyday like lifeless people.My turn now.

- Last year of having the same classmates which i spent 2-4 years of my life with.

- Same goes for the teachers.

- The school ! Last year of actually going to the school :(

- The boys/men I hang around with.Will really miss the times we used to beat up Fahmi for no reason.

- The girls that were always there for me :) Thanks for helping me whenever I fall,for quarreling with me for no absolute reason,for hitting me with no reason,for talking with me and for making me laugh :) SHOUTOUT TO SOUYOUNG ~~for getting us lost when we tried to go to plaza Singapura from Fort Canning Part~~ ! :D

- Mrs Tan Mui Kheng and her infamous quotes - "Bloody idiot","Everybody did their homework except for one little rascal"

- The times we used to play soccer at street soccer courts and getting injured/sent to hospital.

- Back when i was still like this

Will really miss the 4 years spent in secondary school.

Treasures.

2010-01-21T05:56:00.000-08:00

Why does one not realise how much one loves another, until they are seperated and reunited once again?
Why am I starting to love you again?
In fact, I feel guilty,
I hurt you eventhough you weren't mine.
I still remember what you said,
those words are clear, and I'll remember them forever.
"How can I love someone who doesn't even love himself"
I really regretted my actions back then, they were stupid,
I admit it.
But now, I keep thinking to myself
"Why am I starting to really love her now?Is it because it may be the last time I'll ever see her?"
However hard I tried, I just couldn't find the answer.
Is love but a feeling that one feels through memories?

New year soon.

2009-12-30T07:53:00.000-08:00

New year is coming.
Time for a change.
No more unhealthy foods please.
I'm super tired.
Guess some teachers are right when they said do not expect to get alot of rest during the holidays.
I spent at least 23 days overseas.
And at least afew weeks of Pds training.
My thumb-hand joint is severely injured.
Let's just hope that it can hold out until I'm done with the performance.
I'm super scared that I drop the rifle during the performance.
For those without any clue,this is what I will be doing.

Let's talk about something else,SC BBQ :D ( and NO,SC in my case does not mean Student Council.Kthxbai )

Supposed to meet the rest at 2pm @ parkway.Was super early and arrived at 1.45 -.-
Went to buy coffee and sat down for awhile.
Sms-ed Denise and she told she was 3 bus stops away,so I started making my way to the meeting point.
Turned out that only the 2 of us were at the meeting point,so we went out first to get food for the bbq.
Finding the otah halfway,met wirbe and chicken.
After walking for quite some time,finally found the shop.
Bought chicken wings,satay and otah.
Went back to Giant to get syrup,mineral water,some more satay,corn and the bbq necesseties.
And sausages.70 of them.10 from each brand.Didn't know how we actually finished it.
Waited for Yan Ping outside NTUC.
Me,Wirbe,Chicken and her went to pit first while Denise went to the library to return her books.
Teddy was already waiting for us at the pit.lol
Halfway through the bbq,it started to rain heavily.
And there we were,4 people bbq-ing in the rain xD
The bbq was super eventful after the rain stopped though.
Wirbe got blamed for every single mistake xD
We decided to try and rate the sausages xD
Here are two pics of us :) Yan Ping isn't in the picture though,

Played cards after that.Bridge,Poker,Black Jack.
Got a super nice hand for bridge.
8/9/10/J/K/A Spade
Q/K/A Diamond.

After that I went off with Yan Ping while the rest stayed back to play more cards.
Sent her to her bus stop,then cab-ed home because I was so frigging tired and I had training the next day.

The red coloured rank for our school's customized PDS armband.
It looks super outstanding,especially when wearing the number 3 uniform.
Shall have to go collect them on 2nd Jan.

That's all I'm going to post now.Bye :D

Shi bu shi wo you zuo cuo le shen me`

singing in a void`

2009-12-25T08:29:00.000-08:00

Don't you shower me with questions
For sure the answers will be dissapointing.
Please understand my request,
Every person has feelings
Every relationship needs it's sacrifice,
However hurtful my actions are
I'm willing to seperate for the sake of humanity
As long as you're happy,that's what matters
Please love him,because he suits you more
What am I? Just a singer in a void.

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School's gonna reopen soon.I'm super nervous about the first day performance.Are we ready?I don't think so :( we still got alot of brushing up to do.I'm still scared of taking the risk by doing the triple jumbo :(

New Blog :D

2009-12-17T08:48:00.000-08:00

HELLO PEOPLE ! welcome to my new blog :) which i'll try to update as much as possible. anyway,shall talk about India Desert Trekking'09 ! It's an overseas trip organized by HQ NCC to India to get to experience camel riding. It's also part of the International Cadet Exchange Programme for cadets from different countries to mix together and learn about each other.(actually i didn't learn anything about them.lol) Total of 14 cadets and 2 teacher officers from Singapore embarked on this once in a lifetime journey :D they are...
Mr Soo ! LTA(NCC) - Deyi Sec
Mr Ho ! CPT(NCC) - SJI
C/2LT Jun Kai (Hwa Chong Institution,my buddy for the trip eh)
SSG Sze Jian (Deyi Sec,also a friend of mine from AI Course)
SSG Jun Jie (Peihua Sec)
1SG Benjamin (Nan Chiau High)
3SG Royston (Nan Chiau High)
SSG Tian Ran(Ang Mo Kio Sec,Sheryl knows him :D )
SSG Jun Jiang (USM Of North Vista Sec :D )
SSG Zahid (North Vista Sec)
SSG Amirul (Bedok South,MAHH NDP BRADERR)
SSG Azmi (USM Of Ngee Ann Sec,also another friend of mine :D )
2SG Zachary (St.Patrick School)
SSG Samuel (St.Patrick School)
SSG Veingad (Bukit Panjang Gov High)
SSG Hasfis (ME LAH !)

I reached home from Japan on the 19th,slept overnight at home,and had to get ready to leave for india as my flight was on the 21st,around 3.50am.The trip was 15 days ! Just imagine 15 days of not having SG food :( really missed the food here when I was in India.To be honest,I missed everything that SG had to offer.We reached Delhi Airport around 8.30am SG time,6am India time.Oh my,the immigration customs there were,sad to say,slow and inefficient.Waited for at least 45 minutes just to clear immigration ! Slept at Delhi NCC's HQ for 2 nights.I have to say,the rooms were superb.Maybe because they were officer's bunks.Come on,personal toilet,heater,2 comfortable beds (except the rock hard pillows).What more can you ask for?There's even TV ! Very uneventful there though :( Had to take an 18 hour train ride to Rajastan,where our camel safari is.Unique experience for me :) Arrived in Rajastan 18 hours later,where we were taken to our base camp in the Thar desert,a good 45minutes+ trip by vehicle from the railway station.The desert is really....deserted.lol. It's nothing but sand,sand and more sand.Occasionally there are buildings made of...mud,which is,sand.lol. Well,the camel riding was SUPER SIEN ! just imagine doing squats for 4 hours without stopping,that's how your legs would feel ! and when the camel runs,your body will go up and down,resulting in an impact on your groins with every step it takes,I got used to it though but it was hell the first few days.

Me mounting a camel !
We ended our camel safari on 2/3 December.the days passed by really slowly though.Our certificates were presented to us by the Deputy Director General of Rajastan NCC, a general from the Indian Air Force.

Me receiving the certificate.
Well,everything was uneventful after that though,the remaining days were mostly travelling back.When I reached Singapore,I felt damn glad to be back lah.Reached home,first thing I did was bathe ! FINALLY A PROPER SHOWER THAT DOESN'T INVOLVED DISGUSTING COLOURED WATER FILLED WITH SAND :D

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11/12/2009
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This year of part A PDS cadets finally graduated.For me,it is the second batch under me.I can't believe that time flies so fast and that I have handed over my position as the PDS Head to Ilham.I hope that I did a good job in maintaining the standard of our school's NCC PDS.To my part Bs soon to be part C pds cadets,I still remember the times when I first took training,how I trained you guys,to be who you are today.I admit that I can be harsh sometimes but I hope that you guys are finally able to see the reasons for my actions now that you have taken over the PDS unit.It feels just like yesterday that it was your first training,where i made you all do PT until you couldn't move your arms the next day.I must say,I am absolutely PROUD of you guys.You guys will probably be the best batch I have ever thought.Even though the trainings were tough,most of you stayed on and persevered.The feeling that I have now is that of a father who has watched his son grow up.I watched you guys grow up from secondary one boys to young adults.Just remember not to make the same mistake I did.Just remember these points.
-Respect must be earned,not demanded.
-Rank is but a piece of cloth,it's the respect that you get which matters.
-Always believe in yourselves,and do what you think is right.A leader makes decisions which he believes to be right,not decisions which are wrong just to gain popularity.
-Popularity does not matter,it is normal for cadets to hate you.
-A leader always goes the extra mile.

With that,I shall end my super long post.